when will i stop

being such a loser, screw-up, up to no good kinda person

when

why is everything i touch turning into fake gold, worthless, less than plastic. it is garbage.

so this is how it feels to be such an incompetent. not that i never felt this way before. i am such a born loser. but to feel this way over and over definitely keeps me in emotional hell.

why can’t i be good at something. just one thing. am i not trying hard enough. am i that dense. will i forever be in this hell hole.

those are not quite questions, are they. it is and always has been quite obvious. i’m imbecile. i am absolute bullshit

i’m in hell and don’t know how to climb out of it

i want to be her. just for a day

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